Please play the video while reading this post. Kotobuki Minako is my favorite voice actress since 2009 that come out solo not long after the success of Sphere.
She’s a good girl, support her. smile
What Do I Have?
I used to smile everyday last time.
Feeling grateful to what I have, what I achieve.
But when I really look through all my life, I didn’t achieve anything actually.
I don’t have anything or anyone either.
Do I feel sad?
Somehow, but it’s just seems not important anymore.
Perhaps I’ve get used to it.
Is it something good?
I don’t know but for sure if given a choice, I don’t want to stay in this place forever.
The Uncertain Weather
I can predict the weather of the earth, but not my own self which always changed somehow.
Sometimes the sun shone the brightest until you can’t look up.
Sometimes it’s so cold like a winter in the north pole.
Witness of Self Destruction
Days by days, I always waste my time procrastinating and doing nothing that can help to achieve my dreams until lately.
Without realizing, a year have passed.
I’ve woke up, but the wasted time is not able to be claimed back.
I saw my own destruction, but not that I care.
Now when I started to care, it seems not too late to revive this very flesh but then the wounds are real.
What should I look forward next?
That myself to heal?
So The Day That I Can Smile Again?
That day still far.
I’m not sure what day will it be.
Will it be during my wedding day?
Will it be during my daughter was born?
Will it during my old days where I see my children all grow up well and in good manners?
Now, if you noticed.
It’s all about “family”.
My future family.
I was thinking when I was just about to sleep.
What do we serve in this life?
Does everything else matter at all?
People die everyday.
If you think that so negatively, of course tomorrow does not matter at all.
So how we do make our life become meaningful?
By doing good things to people and society?
Why do you think that is a good idea then?
As our technology become advance, something still remain the same.
We still are just human.
I Want To Smile Again
I feel happy.
But those are what I choose to feel.
What I choose to be.
Happiness is what you choose, they said.
So I did that.
The result is extremely helpful in facing this dull life.
But then, until when we need to generate our own happiness?
At some point of life, how good it is to actually receive happiness from someone else.
Do you agree with me?
It’s tiring isn’t it?
Try to generate your own heat by your own palm.
It’s so much easier and comfortable to just hug someone during the winter and share the body heat.
Or better, being embraced too.
But I’m telling myself, there’s not me alone here.
There will be someone who I can bring home.
Or someone who can bring home to me.
Somehow they feel near, but as if I was surrounded by the mist, I can’t see the mountain in front of my path.
I’ll just walk faithfully and wait for that fateful day to come.
It’s tiring to walk of course.
That’s why sometimes I waste my time lying down on the tree trunk and procrastinating.
Was it my fault that the fateful day come late?
If I keep walking, for sure I’ll reach early.
But to where?